Helloooo. Yes I'm alive
I haven't really done much on dA in like a month. Just a few days ago I got this nasty cough but since I'm stubborn I still go to school
Today I had to leave the room during a math test because I was coughing so bad I couldn't breath
I think some stress caught up with me and it's made my eye twitch for 4 days straight
But anyway. Getting back on my writing/photography track again. Trying to get another sponser for the young author's club this year, as well as making brownies and such for a bake sale to raise money for my school's new Gay-Straight-Alliance club ^_^
So yeah. I've been having short-term memory loss lately so I don't really know what else has been going on with me lol.
I apologize to some of you if it feels like I'm ignoring or something, I'm not. Just been a bit busy and in a rush.
But everything's pretty good I guess

Halloween was fun. I wasn't planning on dressing up and going out, but I did anyway to get candy for my little brother cuz' he's on crutches and can't do it himself. I wore my dad's tie and mom's reading glasses and put my hair up just for fun, and everybody said I looked like a librarian/teacher haha. My bf came over to watch a scary movie and he tried on random things from around the house and basically went with me as John Lenon with this amazing very well-done english accent :3

...your first love?
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...there was this point where we were just laying back on the recliners, staring at each other, smiling, and...
His hand was so close to mine, and we began to get sentimental and sweet together, expressing our gratitude... And he was stroking my finger lightly, the headrests were close but comfortable...
And there was just this silent agreement, you know? He moved his hand more on mine and it was so wonderful, so amazing! I got this feeling, so comfortable, my heart beating so fast, but I loved it, god I loved it...
I kept thinking...
Is this romantic, or is it friends?
But then it didn't even matter because I knew he was happy, and I was too, and he closed his eyes....
And we were both so comfortable and sleepy, and we started dozing off, holding hands on my armrest...
My god, it was just amazing. I wish he could have stayed forever.
It was...
ahhh.
Amazing.

And we both knew we were holding hands but neither of us said a word, we just knew, we just did...
It was so relaxing.
I could spend forever with him.

-----*-------

....so we waited for a slow dance.
And when I was dancing with him, I just closed my eyes, my head on his shoulder, and all I felt was him....
I forgot where I was...
It was just...
there.
It was so comfortable...

----*-----*-----

...I had to constantly wipe away tears.
Of what? They were both happy and sad. I never knew that was possible.
When he said one thing I thought it was a statement, but it was only the begining of a sentence because it took him a while to speak...
"..you don't....have to respond..."
"...to what?" I sniffed.
"....but I love you."
I cried. "I love you too..." I choked.
The tears were very warm. Hot, almost. I wonder if he could feel them soak through his shirt.


To this day, we still dance to our heartbeats and fall asleep in imaginary fields under the stars.

“There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love.”

For him.

So, I've decided to do my first ever kiriban. I'm at 3,505 views so far....get a screen shot of 3,535 and you get a request from me
I get my pageviews very slow, so there's plenty of time.
And wow, one away from my 700th deviation.

In other news, last night was homecoming, and it was amazing.
I had so much fun, it was really great ^_^

Watashino atama wa tsukarateimasu.
Kokoro wa tsukaratesimasu.
Itai desu.

My head is tired, my heart is tired. It hurts.
Blahhhhh. Stressed. My parents keep fighting, and of course that's no fun. My mom wants a divorce and they're trying to drag me into it and it sucks. Stress makes me very tired rather than hectic like some people, and it also makes my stomach hurt when I eat a meal.
....I don't really know what else to say. Hope I'm not complaining... Just letting eveyone know I might not be on for a while. I'm not sure what's going to happen with my and the family. It's seems like nobody can get along anymore. It seems like nobody can be happy anymore, or at least stay that way.

Flying and falling
and swaying and crying
and trying and tripping
just to do it all over again.

Sorry to be so dismal. I'm trying to be happy! I promised my friends I would. So.... -smiles-

....-headdesk-

Can't wait for the fall leaves.

haha, wow I am such a nerd
I was really bored in math class today and I figured out that today, 09-02-09, is the same forwards as it is backwards, and it'll only happen once this year. So yeah, that's what a palindrome is :L
How lame of me.

So I haven't updated stuff in a while, I might as well.
Last year my BFF and I started a writing club in the school, and now this year they've added it in our school planners as a club, me as president. --We're somebodys!

School is actually, in a weird way.. -cringes-..
_fun.


I mean, I really enjoy my Japanese class. My sensei is adorable, I love how she pronounces names! She's really young and pretty too.
"Natalie-sannnn, Glen-Kunnnn~
She makes the class and language enjoyable. I've learned a lot of Japanese this year and last.
So many AP classes auaha ;_;

And I am soooo upset that I can't photography as an elective this year!! It requires having both semesters open, and I don't have that because of my Japanese and academy AP classes...and..stuff.
They said I can take it next year... IF I get a P.E. wavier. -.-

Chemistry was pretty neat on the second day; we made chemicals that turned rainbow colors in the test tube 8D

And my health ed tells me sooo much about my emotional and mental state of being...
I took a quiz at school, I guess this is me: [link]



Word of the day: spoonula (yes, that's a word! look it up. It'a a science tool )

^{I prefer sporkula though}

Fun word: aisheteimasu = I love you (:
Not-so-fun word: atama ga itai desu - I have a headache ):

Hope school is going well for everyone!

すごい、　ね？